my wish

I never thought about life without your smile
and leaving without a goodbye isn't your style
I thought you would always be with me
I really didn't think you would leave
I took you for granted while you were here
and now all that I wish for is that you were near
I never imagined life without you
nor did I imagine that it would make me feel so blue
but here I am and now you've gone away
and all I want is for you to come back one day
I never meant to hurt you so
I'd change it in heartbeat I want you to know
if given another chance I'd never hurt you again
for you I would attempt to wipe away all the devil's sins
there's nothing I wouldn't try to do
if I thought it would allow me to save you
the tears I've shed don't seem quite enough
and although I try, I'm afraid I'm just not that tough
I wish I could tell you just how much I care
the tragic end to your life wasn't fair
how do you justify a tragedy so great?
no matter what anyone says you didn't have a life that you would hate
you were so nice, maybe that was your fate
you tried to save her, and then it was too late
why must nice guys finish last?
why can't I go back to you in my past?
but always know how much I really love you
and never doubt that all these words are true
I was blind when you were here
now that you are gone, my only wish is to have you near.